A Little Bit of Something of My 18 Years in Life

Assalamualaikum...

 It has been more than 7 months since I last updated my blog. I can assure you guys out there that blogging wasn't really my passion but I do have some things that I wanna post here once i a while. Sometimes its a thing that I am unable to post in my Facebook wall or anywhere else...

Actually, what I really wanted to say here was, well, a typical problem  faced by a majority of teenagers nowadays which a matter called LOVE (oh, shoot... now my post sounded like some girl who loves romance. HELL NO! that's not me!!). Well, yeah... as a normal 18 year old girl, I do want a little bit of drama and suspense in my life. I mean, who wouldn't want their life to be exciting once in a while? These drama that I was hoping for was absolutely typical. Handsome guy, love, an exotic place to see, get excellent marks, start off with a good work, an easy life and being rich. All these are the fundamentals of a perfect drama. But this is REALITY. I can't really hope for every single thing in a drama to be real in my life. At least no if I work hard for it. Life sounds harsh but what can I do?

Now, what I really wanted to say is I have a dilemma about guys and love-life. Its not that I'm in love with a guy. I don't plan to fall in love yet but I do have someone who likes me. This guy is not how I imagined my perfect guy would be (not that I have imagined one yet). He told me he likes me and it really bothers me. I'm not so into love yet and I have to focus with my studies. He never really talks to me after he confessed to me. I mean, not a face-to-face conversation. I didn't want to give him hope and I also didn't want to be harsh. Thus, I don't answer his texts and never looked at him in the eye. I mean, come on man~ gimme a break.... This is about the first guy I'm having a problem with...

The second guy is well, we mainly text each other occasionally. I thought we were just friends. At least that was what I wanted the relationship to be. I don't know if feels the same. He doesn't really say it but he jokes about wanting to marry me, wanting to date me and liking me. I don't respond, of course but I do feel uncomfortable...

So that's my bit of life. Who would've thought that things like this could happen it just less than 6 months??

Girls Over Chocolates: Chapter 3 *Part 3*

~Park Tae Rin~

I felt dumb when I covered what I really wanted to say to Sung Young. Actually, I didn’t forget what I wanted to say. I just hesitated to tell her. I wanted to share with her about what happened to me last night. I really wanted her to know about it because I can’t keep my mouth shut. I just wanted some opinions. Sung Young seemed to have believed my words. So much for opinions… Maybe I should ask someone else? Actually, last night’s incident was still playing on my head.

*Flashback*

I sank quietly at one corner after that boy suddenly went mad. My heart was beating fast. Fear crept down my spine. The humid air sent chills that made my body shiver wildly. How could I forget my own jacket and my phone? If I had not forgotten them, I would have been at home and watching the drama I just bought. This sucks..

I could feel my breath getting hotter by the minute. I could feel a warm sensation slowly burning under my skin. Have I just caught a fever? I tried to look calm but my shivering body was not helping at all. I wanted to get home faster and hide under my blanket. Sitting in the total darkness, I was wondering what the girls were doing. Have they realised that I was not home yet. Are they looking for me now? Will they come and rescue me? What if they didn’t notice my absence? What should I do? I’m really afraid. Someone, save me...

The cold air sent chills down my spine. I was shivering so hard that my teeth clattered vigorously. I couldn’t stop myself. What should I do? That was the only question playing at the back of my head. It has been a while since we, me and that guy with no manners, were stuck in the locked music room. By now, my skin was getting redder. Signs of fever were all over my face. I felt the uneasiness and everything was spinning followed by a splitting headache. I need to go to the clinic. Or see my private doctor. Arrgghh... I took in a deep breath and exhaled hard. Then I felt someone touched my forehead.

“Your head is burning hot. You have a fever...”

  He sighed and he wrapped me in his coat. Then, I felt his shoulder brushed against mine as he took a seat beside me.

“Although you are the one who is at fault, I need to do something to keep your temperature down. At least until someone finds us.”

Suddenly, I heard his stomach growled. Silence ensued. I recalled the uneaten bread that I had during recess. I remembered that I did not have the appetite that time and planned to keep it for later. No wonder my heart felt weird when I decided to keep the bread. Maybe it had known that this will happen. Why did I not notice it? I took out the small bread which was in my pocket. How come I remembered to put this in my pocket but missed my phone? Am I some kind of an idiot? I spontaneously slapped my forehead with my free hand. The person beside me moved a bit. Maybe he was startled. I felt his weird gaze.

“Umm... do you want this bread? I heard your stomach growled,” I asked. I was trying to be nice as I held out half of the bread to him. I guess he was hungry since he took the bread without hesitating. He murmured the word ‘Thanks’ after he had a bite of the bread. I smiled although he couldn’t see me in the dark room. Maybe this guy is not that bad after all. He was thoughtful enough to wrap me in his coat. Not to mention that his coat smells nice. I mean, his coat doesn’t have the usual ‘men-sweat’ smell. His coat has that scent of a newly washed coat. He is most probably a perfectionist.

Time passed as we both sat at the same corner, waiting for someone who is nice enough to get us out of the dark room but no one came for our aid. After quite some time, I got tired of waiting and the half bread that I ate before was certainly not enough for me to get through the night. My eyes were getting tired of the darkness around me. I slowly closed my eyes and ended up sleeping. Covering half of my body with his coat, I fell asleep and ignored the shivering cold that surrounded me. All that I could think of was to rest my weak body. After that, everything was a blank until finally, I heard a faint sound of people talking outside the room and someone banging on the door to make it open.

“Yah, we found them!”

“Who?”

“Jaejoong-hyung and that friend of yours, umm... Tae something... Yah, look. Don’t they look very close in that position...”

“Huh! Don’t be ridiculous, Changmin! Tae Rin!”

I felt Asuka (I recognised her voice) grabbed me.

“Uh! Tae Rin, you have a fever! Changmin, what are you doing in this critical situation? We’d better get Tae Rin to the clinic”

Someone sneezed and from the sound of it, it was a guy who sneezed. I had no strength left to open my eyes.

“Jaejoong hyung, are you okay?”

“Great, they are both sick... I’m going to call Ri Yeon hyung. You call the others, Changmin.”

*End of Flashback* 

Girls Over Chocolates: Chapter 3 *Part 2*

~Kim Sung Young~

I was feeling a bit shy when I saw the boys that helped us the night before coming to the café. Asuka seemed very comfortable as she talked to them. They looked like normal associates talking among each other. She could mix with anyone, that Asuka. Sometimes I envy her. The meeting ended with a mug of hot chocolate for each of us. The boys said that they’ll surely come on that day, politely. I was eying Yunho closely. He had this habit of smiling cutely when he was being polite. I kept on blushing alone for a few times and luckily no one noticed it. I can feel my heart beating faster every time I blushed.

The three of us, (me, Asuka and Ri Yeon) were back on the road. We planned to walk all the way to our house. Ri Yeon looked weird. She had been kicking random stuffs on the pavement as she walked. It seemed like she was deep in her own thoughts. I gave Asuka a small push and made a slight movement with my head to make Asuka look at Ri Yeon.

“What’s wrong with her?” I whispered carefully. Asuka made a shrug and gave me her ‘I-don’t-know-too’ look.

“Ne, hyung! What’s with the face?” Asuka finally said. Sometimes I think that Asuka has problems with respecting other people’s privacy. Maybe she has to be reminded that there are times when it is best to keep your mouth to yourself. People might think that you are such an annoying person.

“What face?” Ri Yeon answered.

“That!” Asuka answered as she poked Ri Yeon with her finger. Ri Yeon leaped when Asuka poked her. I laughed at Ri Yeon’s sudden reaction.

“Okay! Okay! Stop now, ASUKA!!” Ri Yeon pleaded.

“Not until you tell me why!”

“*laughing hard* What ‘why’? *continues to laugh*”

“The face ‘why’!”

Alright, Ri Yeon was laughing so hard that I think Asuka was going overboard with her ‘interrogation’. Maybe it was the time for me to stop her. Ri Yeon was already turning red due to laughing too much.

“Okay, Asuka. You can stop now…”

Asuka stopped poking Ri Yeon. By that time, the three of us were standing at the small bridge in a park not far from the café. That was my favourite place. It has a stunning outlook. Even during winter, that is when all the snow settled down on the ground and covered the whole place like a white carpet. But that was not the scenery that I saw there on that day.

Asuka and Ri Yeon was being childish again. Asuka was trying to make Ri Yeon spill what she was thinking but Ri Yeon kept on denying it. Asuka’s effort finally found success. I saw Ri Yeon hesitating.

“You’re hesitating!” Asuka said with a grin.

“No… okay… I was hesitating. But now I’m not!”

“So what? Spill it!”

“Okay, I just didn’t like Junsu that much,” she confessed.

“Why?” I interrupted, “I mean, Junsu doesn’t look that bad.”

“Come to think of it, hyung, Junsu was also that boy who caught you at the cafeteria, right? He was also the one that Changmin and I left behind, right?” Asuka started. Things suddenly became interesting. I always liked these kind of things. It’s like a scene in a drama. Ri Yeon nodded slowly.

“Really!?” I squeaked. Asuka’s grin spread wider.

“What happened?” I asked with such excitement and that was how I knew what that happened. Asuka also told us what that had happened to her when she left Ri Yeon and Junsu because of Changmin. Eventually, Asuka did throw Changmin to the floor because she thought that Changmin was being suspicious. That explains the part where Ri Yeon said that Junsu and she heard Changmin’s yell. Nothing interesting happened to Asuka and Changmin. That night was just the start of their friendship. That was it. The thing that happened to Asuka was the total opposite thing that happened to Ri Yeon. After hearing the whole story, I started to understand a small part of what Ri Yeon felt.

“I think that is fate!” Asuka teased.

“Well I think that is just plain bad luck!” Ri Yeon countered.

“Okay… let’s see what will happen AFTER this…” Asuka said as she walked away, leaving us to catch up with her. Asuka was holding her phone in her hand. There was someone who was trying to contact her. I could see the phone’s screen but I didn’t kbow whose name was on the calling screen. It was written in Japanese. Asuka picked it up.

“Kazuma!” I heard her said. Who’s Kazuma? Her boyfriend?

Asuka was on the phone all the way back. She looked really happy talking to him. I did not understand what they were talking about and so did Ri Yeon. We both did not learn Japanese. There was never a situation that came up that needed us to speak in Japanese. Asuka was already fluent in Korean language when we first met her. Her reaction was really excited when talking to the Japanese boy. It seemed that this Kazuma guy is someone to her. The most possible answer is that he is her boyfriend. But she doesn’t look like she is in love. She spoke to him like an acquaintance. If he is not her boyfriend, then who is this Kazuma?

Asuka went straight into her room when we got home and she was still on the phone. I wanted to eavesdrop on her but it was useless. The reasons,

1.      She is having a conversation in Japanese

2.      She HATES people who eavesdrops

3.      I would be even more curious

4.      I might get caught

And that is BAD!

So, I decided to do my usual routine every day that is to bathe, change into house clothes and yes, chat with a certain someone in the chatroom.

So, I turned on my laptop and entered the site we used to chat.

SAPHIRE                   : Hey! Are you there?

M.Y.                            : Yup… wassup?

SAPHIRE                   : Just wondering…

M.Y.                            : Wondering about what?

SAPHIRE                   : Well…

M.Y.                            :What?

SAPHIRE                    :Still remember that I said I wanted to invite ‘him’ to my        party this weekend? I did it…

M.Y.                            : That’s great! I’m also asked to a party this weekend…

WHAT? I wanted M.Y. to come to my party! I seriously thought that it was the perfect time to meet ‘him’. Now what?...

SAPHIRE                   : Oh… that’s nice…

M.Y.                            : It’s great right…

This guy had no idea…

SAPHIRE                   : Yup, it is… Well… I guess I should rummage to fine a decent

dress to wear, right? I mean… I wanna look my best… So, I’ll talk to you later…

            M.Y.                            : uhh… okay… I’ll talk to you later then…

So, with that I left my laptop and started looking into my wardrobe to find anything striking to wear at the party. I was kind of angry though. That person didn’t stop me at all. He just let me go. Just then, Tae Rin entered my room.

“Yah, Sung Young-ah… AHH?!”

From her voice, I could tell that she was surprised. I emerged from the back of my wardrobe door and saw her look. She was really surprised. Her hand was on her head.

“Yes?” I asked. She looked at the mess in my room with a half opened mouth.

“Sung Young, what are you doing?” She asked with a worried look.

“Looking for a good dress for my birthday party,” I answered and got back into the wardrobe to look. Tae Rin followed me in.

“Do you realise that your room is in a complete mess?”

“Let it be… I’ll do something about it after I find a good dress. So, why were you looking for me? ”

There was a sudden silence. I was waiting for Tae Rin to answer my question but she didn’t utter a single word. I was beginning to feel impatient and turned around to look at her face.

“Yah, what is it?”

“Sung Young ah… I forgot what I wanted to say…” was what Tae Rin answered. Then we both fell into a short silence before we both laughed. We were laughing at Tae Rin’s forgetfulness. 

Girls Over Chocolates: Chapter 3 *Part 1*

~Han Ri Yeon~

Seung Mi wasn’t feeling better. She sprained her ankle last night and was given permission by the doctor to stay at home for the day. Tae Rin, on the other hand had caught a fever after being in the cold music room for more than four hours, I think. So, she too had to stay at home. They were both still in bed that morning as the leftover triplets, me, Sung Young and Asuka, prepared for school. I was not really happy though. I was really unhappy. I heard Sung Young suggested the girls to invite the boys who helped find Tae Rin last night to come to the party we held for Sung Young’s birthday and Asuka’s stay in Korea. It’s not that I didn’t want them to come but I just didn’t feel like I want one of them to come.

The teacher had important business which interrupted the class and had to leave the class for a while to settle it. I was staring blankly at the blackboard at the time when Asuka suddenly tapped my left shoulder. I was bored and had nothing to do while ignoring those stupid ‘fan boys’ who thinks that I liked them to like me. I looked up at Asuka as she gave me a small smile indicating that she wants me to hear what they were talking about. Since I was bored to death, and the other two was absent, I decided to hear them out.

“Tell her, Sung Young,” Asuka said as she nudged Sung Young. Asuka was laughing. I had no idea why. Sung Young shook her head.

“Stop being so innocent, Sung Young. Alright, I’ll tell her. You know what, Ri Yeon? Sung Young suggested on asking the boys to come to the party this weekend.”

“Isn’t everyone in this school invited?” I asked frankly.

“They are, but… let’s invite them personally. The others were told by some announcement but we didn’t tell them to come face to face,” Sung Young explained.

“You mean like asking them to come personally. Like seeing them face to face? Now?” I asked, bewildered at the decision.

“Of course, not now! Those fans of yours and all of us *Asuka rolled her eyes as she mentioned the fans part* will surely be suspicious… I don’t wanna see what’s going to happen if we confront the boys now…” Asuka responded almost immediately. I managed to ask about Tae Rin and Seung Mi’s reaction towards the plan but Sung Young had confirmed that they too had agreed. Although I didn’t like it, I had to see eye to eye. We should thank them for helping us finding Tae Rin.

“How should we tell them?” I asked out of curiosity.

“Leave that to me,” Asuka said as she grinned. The next thing I know was that after class I had been dragged to a nearby café, a chocolate café, without knowing why I was dragged there. Asuka took a seat at a table for seven, near a window.

“Let me guess. You told them to come here?” I asked.

“You can say that… or you could say I write it on a piece of paper and told them to come here…” Asuka answered with a grin. Sung Young was being quiet again. I don’t know what reason she became quiet like that is.

“Ne! Are you going to stand there or are you going to sit down?”

I took a seat beside Sung Young and looked through the menu. A few minutes later, the boys showed up. It’s about time they showed up. They took their seats in front of us and waited for us to say something. The situation was surely awkward. I could sense the tense feeling around us during our silence period.

“Umm… actually, we wanted to tell you something,” Asuka started. She was brave enough to talk. She gave Sung Young a small push as a sign to say it now. I saw Sung Young hesitated. She was feeling the awkwardness and was having difficulties to talk.

“Actually, we wanted to personally invite you all to a party this weekend. It’s my birthday party and a party to welcome Asuka’s stay in Korea,” she said finally.

 I stayed quietly and tried to look like I was not really thinking and looked around. Then, my eyes caught one of the boy’s eyes. The one that had caught me out of reflex a day before (incident in Chapter 1). I quickly rolled my eyes away. Asuka started to get comfortable with them. I knew it because she is the type of person who could talk a lot when she’s comfortable. Even the boys were getting along fine with her. Sung Young was still struggling to stay in the same zone as Asuka and the boys. I was the only one sitting around, doing nothing.

“Hey, why is it just you four? Where’s the other one?” I heard Asuka asked.

“Oh, you noticed? Jaejoong didn’t come today because he had caught a flu,” the one called Yoochun answered.

“Jaejoong… wasn’t he was the one who was trapped with my friend yesterday?” Asuka proceeded. The boys made a surprised face.

“You really have a great memory!”

“Iie, nani mo…”

“Pardon?”

“Oh, did I just say something in Japanese? Sorry… It’s nothing big…”

That was some of the conversation ‘we’ had. Well, actually Asuka did all the talking since I kept myself quiet and Sung Young being shy all of the sudden. The boys didn’t seem to notice. During all the talk, the flashback of the situation last night played back in front of my eyes.

*Flashback*

“Ri Yeon hyung, where should we start searching?” Asuka asked. Her hands were holding my left arm tightly. Since she asked, I wondered for a while. Where should we start? Where would Tae Rin have gone to? The two boys, Changmin and *sigh* Junsu was walking way ahead of us. The hallway was really dark. I guess that was the reason Asuka held on to my arm. Maybe she was afraid. But she is not the type that is easily scared, at least not in front of me.

“Why don’t you ask them?” I answered as I pointed at the two boys in front of them.

“Hey, you two boys!” Asuka called out. I was half kidding when I told her to ask the boys but she took it seriously and called them for real. I felt half better when she called them. I was also freaking out in the darkness. The boys turned around as soon as they heard her calling out to them.

“What?”

“Where are you guys heading to? I mean, where should we start looking first?”

I swore I saw the tall guy (just call him by his name!)(okay!), Changmin smirked. Before he said,

“Let’s split up, into pairs.”

He left Junsu behind and grabbed Asuka’s hand before leaving me and Junsu gaping together.

“We’re going to look for them at the second floor! You guys look for them here!” he shouted at us before Asuka and him vanished. I was amused that Asuka didn’t struggle to get off Changmin’s grip. To my bewilderment, I was left in an awkward situation. At least that was what I think the situation felt like. A moment of silence ensued.

“Aigoo, that Changmin! Someday I will get him for this!”

I heard Junsu’s complaint. He was seriously pissed with that Changmin. In the awkwardness of the situation, I bravely mustered my courage and approached Junsu.

“Shouldn’t we start looking for them now?” I asked, masking my uneasiness.

*Bang!*

“OUCHH!!”

Junsu and I exchanged looks and Junsu smirked.

“That sounded like Changmin. He must have fallen somewhere,” Junsu said with a small laugh. I raised one eyebrow. What is wrong with his head?  His friend is in pain and he’s happy to know about it. My hand suddenly raised and knocked him hard on his arm.

“OUCH!! What the…”

“Yah! He’s in pain, for goodness sake! Do you have to laugh and ignore him? Who is he? A toy?”

I was suddenly angry for no reason. I don’t usually get angry but his attitude was just getting on my nerves. Sighing, I turned around and started walking in the darkness without knowing where to go to. After a few steps (it was a lot of steps, actually), I still didn’t realise that I was going somewhere and Junsu wasn’t behind me. At least that was what I first thought when I finally realised that I was in the middle of the darkness without knowing where exactly I was. Seriously, I was really scared that my hair was standing at its ends. I wanted to scream for help but my voice didn’t come out. I sank onto the cold floor, feeling helpless. The time passed and I was feeling even more helpless. Just when I was sinking deeper into all the helpless thoughts, a warm hand took me and pulled me up.

“You’ve caused me trouble, you know that? We were supposed to search for Jaejoong Hyung and that friend of yours but you wondered off alone. Then I had to search for you,” Junsu complained the minute that I got up to my feet.

*End of flashback*